The Silence with Whales.

Since I was a child, I've always felt facinated by whales. My grandmother used to tell me stories about them, about the seas of the world and how small a human being is compared to these genttle giants. She had seen one, a blue whale, when se lived in the Canary Islands and that story was always my favourite.

The whales, every single one the species there are on this planet, are just amazing. The way they move, the size they are, the way they communicate is just something out of this world. So beautiful, so innocent, so humble.

A long time ago I watched a documentry about a British actress, Minnie Driver, who had a dream of swimming with whales. She travelled across the world to make her dream come true and though in my mind it sounded quite simple, it definitely wasn't.
She had a whole crew with her and she had to change the location (by flying few hundred miles) few times because of the movements of the whale herd.
When they finally found the whales after a long search, it was quite moving to see Minnie and her sister, actually diving in the middle of the herd and swimming so close to these giantic animals. How amazing... and breath taking..

Last night a saw a clip on TV of whales and suddenly I was back in my past; listening my gran's stories, watching documentaries with such a facination, dreaming to see whales myself once in this life. I felt freedom, a passion just to dissapear to the oceans with those creatures and peace in my heart.

It would be incredible to be able to see these beautiful animals in their own world one day before I die. The history between me and these animals involve so many emotions. Fear and facination together on the top of the list.

I hope these amazing photos will explain better why I feel the way I feel. And make some justice to these creatures which no one really knows as their secret lies in the bottom of the oceans.

http://www.earthwindow.com/blue.html


So want to feel the silence with whales. Crazy..huh?

Lonely Roads. Fullfilled Seconds.

For a long time my heart has been very heavy. So heavy it has been hard to even carry it. How easy would it be if you could just leave your heart somewhere for a bit, to feel free of feelings? And then you could get it back when you'd be ready to carry it again. Unfortunately that's impossible and maybe because of it, this blog was created.

Sometimes it's hard to put feelings into words but I think it's worth trying for. At the same time I've felt so completely empty in my heart but had an outrageous need to speak out every little feeling I've gone through. Write the words down somewhere where I could say everything without the fear of feeling it's not right and where I could go back to remember this difficult era in my life. When it's over.

Today is one of the many lonely days in my life. Saturday, horrible weather outside, no plans what so ever and not even the mood to do anything. Allthough it's not the most ideal way to spend the best day of the week, it's not the worst either. If you decide it's not.
I've been very lonely many times and for a long period of time in my short life so far. It can feel at times very painfull but there's some freedom in it too. I've learnt things of myself more than ever when I've been all on my own because I've had to face my fears and thoughts. In the end you can't escape from yourself.

We all sail alone in this life but at least the boats can flow away side by side. I want to make sure I keep myself in the boat, even when the road gets rocky. I want to feel the wind, enjoy the sun shine, see the landscapes and feel the beaty of them inside my heart. Each second is valuable and I want to remember that, even when it feels unbearable to live 60 of them or when hours feels like eternity.

We have only one life. This is mine.